mood swing

suddenly feel tired with all of this. wish i can have a more real reason to be mad or break down and cry about it. last night did make it clearer but still it didn't make it feel better. i don't like uncertainty but who's gonna know what could happen next? once again, i know baby steps are needed and does applied here but should there be a limit? i'm actually amazed myself that this could go this far without going anywhere. confused? get in line behind me cos so am i. seems i do care about the person more than i thought i do. the closer i am to people, the more i care about them. that's one of my weaknesses that could and have been taken advantage from by some people and that's the reason for the need of an invisible wall. i'm too self-centred, eh?

but i'm sure i'll get over this messed feeling in a few hour and everything will be normal again. i got a terrible mood swing since yesterday. it is near my time of the month thou. hehe..