hourglass

seperti yg pernah gue denger dari dulu, kecepatan jalannya waktu buat tiap orang beda2. biasanya sih emang karena dipengaruhi sikon tapi sepertinya umur juga ternyata pengaruh. buat bayi 1 hari aja pasti rasanya lama karena mereka gak ngapa2in dan emang gak harus ngapa2in juga, tapi makin gede dan makin tua pasti waktu rasanya lewat cepet banget. so little time, so many things to do

tanda2 penuaan dini, eh?

try this

http://www.oneishy.com/personality/personality_test.php

http://web.tickle.com/tests/genderidentity/

musim ujan dateng lagi nih. hampir setiap sore ujan mulu beberapa hari ini biarpun cuma sebentar. ujannya juga bukan yg lebat banget sih jadi masih ok. kalo ujan ada enaknya sih karena udara jadi lebih dingin tapi biasanya efek jeleknya tuh bikin macet. dan jangan sampe ada banjir lagi deh.

entah kenapa kalo ujan pasti bisa bikin mood jadi lebih kalem. bawaannya jadi mellow. mungkin karena suasananya mendung dan sejuk ya. kaca jendela penuh sama tetesan air hujan jadi apapun yg kita lihat diluar sana jadi bias. semuanya blurred. termasuk apa yg keliatan dari jendela kamar gue.

kalo suasana kayak gini mungkin paling enak buat santai. seperti yg dulu sering gue sama c bayangin duduk di cozy sofa sambil minum hot chocolate ngeliatin ujan dari jendela sambil dengerin lagu. tapi entah kenapa lagu-lagu yg gue suka dengerin kalo lagi mellow pasti justru lagu-lagu mellow juga, bukan sebaliknya yg justru bisa cheer up suasana. oh well, dalam suasana apapun memang pasti lagu slow sih yg gue suka hehe.

ini salah satu contohnya. suram, tapi gue suka musiknya. gue lupa pernah post tentang lagu ini sebelomnya gak ya? anyway, semoga gue gak akan pernah sampe nemuin lagu ini ada kemiripan dengan kejadian dalam hidup gue hehe.

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I Can't Make You Love Me
-George Michael- (originally sang by Bonnie Raitt)

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

CHORUS:
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

CHORUS:
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

Ain't no use in you trying

holiday's over

can't believe fun times always fly faster than you think.

decided not to go to bangkok. too many craps to leave behind if i just went off. surely, that's what i want actually, running away as usual. sigh. so yeah, i'll apologize to lin & y and i'll try making it up by planning a visit in a real holiday time, sometime in hopefully not so far future.

oh, we've lost half of GG already this time. still crossing fingers for getting the other half. and hopefully for next ones too.

holiday, finally

akhirnya saat yg ditunggu2 dateng juga. bukan hari rayanya sih karena gue kan gak lebaranan tapi yg ditunggu-tunggu tuh saat-saat dimana jakarta sepi!! kosong melompong dimana loe bisa nyetir dengan santai atau mau 100kmh lebih juga bisa karena sepi banget. puas deh mo muter2in jakarta. tapi sayangnya biasanya saat2 bahagia seperti itu cuman 2-3 hari trus abis itu mulai crap lagi deh. coba bisa terus kayak gitu hehe. ini emang bukti kalo jakarta tuh jadi tempat orang cari duit. aslinya sih mungkin emang kosong2 aja kali ya.

yah anyway, masih belom bisa decide about bangkok. pengen banget pergi karena tempted shoppingnya juga tapi kepentok urusan GG dan menp jadi entah harus standby atau bisa kabur. ditambah prospek kalo pergi sendiri ke tempat yg sama sekali ga dikenal kayaknya suram deh. nyokap sekali denger juga udah langsung respond dengan nada tinggi nanya gak salah?

sigh

another quite disappointing thing. am i asking too much?

copied from a bulletin in fs

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn'tmistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it willget better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... Even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.

Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

stu's here to meet with the gold's. yeah, finally after being postponed since june. met the owner too, a big businessman, whom they said worries more about numbers before others. hope it will work this time. don't really have the confindent but just crossing the fingers.

i hate monday

pagi ini bangun dengan kepala sedikit pusink. entah karena kurang tidur sejak hari jumat gara2 baca komik mulu dan ngelayap karena ada c, atau karena banyak hal yg rasanya mulai bikin putus asa. rasanya jadi gak antusias aja menyambut hari. males karena gak ada yg bisa di-look forward yg bisa membuat semangat. pengennya libur dan maen terus.

hm.. ini sih childish atau desperate ya? bit of both, i'm sure.