sooner than later

it's going to happen, right? this is exciting! hope everything will be smooth =D

another predictable thing

to put it simple, i've ended all this grudge feeling. well, we ended it together.

i guess it finally reach our limit so this would be a good way out. and already i'm at ease =)

lega. no more faking it. no regrets too i guess.

Golden Pig Year

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

may this golden piggy year brings even more happiness, luck, health and prosperity to all of us.

worse than expected

i decided to give it a shot tomorrow, for whatever it takes and for whatever it gives. fyi, it's still as dark as it was.

anyway, happy valentine!

not so surprised

i've made plan as a surprise but perhaps it won't be necessary anymore. hampir bisa dipastiin kalo keadaannya gini terus sih bakal suram. but i'm the one choosing to stick as far as we could. or at least as he could cos i know sometimes it was my bad.

can't complain this time cos it was my fault.

it takes a lifetime to know someone

i guess i'll never be able to know or even guess what's on his mind.. leave aside understanding him..

schizilly, should i try your just-kidding-suggestion to comfort myself? can you see how bad this affects me? me, who never used to this kind of stupid ideas but now, out of desperation, really wanna take it into consideration.

sigh.

kok bisa (tahan)?

pertanyaan dari rk pas chatting tadi bukan pertanyaan pertama atau kedua kali yg gue dapet waktu orang2 tau gue pacaran jarak jauh alias long distance.

dan jawaban gue: yah mau gimana lagi, gue coba sabar2in lah.. trying to survive. susah sih.

dan kalo ditanya co gue gimana? dia tipe cuek.

coba gue bisa sebodo amat gitu ya take it easy aja. gue heran apa dia ga kangen atau takut kehilangan gue yah? hehe.. sok berharga banget ya gue. entahlah..

flowers, chocolates, candle-light dinner..

barusan liat2 kalender eh taunya uda feb lagi, berarti imlek taon ini uda deket n that valentine's day, hari yg diworship pere sedunia seperti kata si an, juga bakal muncul bentar lagi.

buat yg pacaran n mesra terus, everyday is valentine's day
buat yg single, either they feel blue for being alone or take it as just another normal day and have fun with friends
buat yg pacaran tapi biasa aja atau ld (pacaran tapi kadang serasa single juga karena jauhan), entah jadinya biasa aja atau malah worse than being single?

tapi ada yg bilang gimanapun keadaannya masih mending punya pacar biarpun ld karena at least you know you have someone out there. really? kayaknya ga bener2 amat deh komen ini. yah tergantung tipe orang2nya pastinya.

ga tau deh kalo buat gue nanti bakal jadi hari yg gue tungguin atau sebelin hehe.. mungkin emang gue aja yg suka expect aneh2. lebih tepatnya expectationnya yg ga tepat ditujukan pada tipe2 orang tertentu jadi ga heran juga kalo ga kesampean.. kalo bilang ga expect jadi ga berharap apa2 sih denial banget tapi kalo terang2an expect pasti lebih sebel lagi kalo it's not in favour.

hm...