pain in the ass

feels like some people are just there being themselves to annoy you or pissed you off. these kind of people brings out the bad in you.

poetic mood

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.
George Sand

To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.
David Viscott

If you would be loved, love and be lovable.
Benjamin Franklin

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none.
William Shakespeare

dekat tapi jauh

pernah gak tiba2 ngerasa orang yg selama ini ada di dekat kita terasa seperti orang asing? waktu kita diam dan melihat rasanya aneh dan tiba2 jadi seperti gak kenal lagi. jadi tiba2 males juga rasanya. agak ilfil. atau mungkin itu memang sisi lain yang belum kita lihat makanya terasa asing? atau mungkin yg selama ini diperlihatkan ke kita memang palsu? jadi tiba2 ilfil.

twisted words or twisted mind?

life still sucks for me.
i still suck at life.

a short chat with hen makes me think which one's more like it. two different meaning.

none of them is more preferable, thou.

denial

that thought of looking for another and hopefully better options is really still there.

i don't like uncertainty, but i still can try to live with it. it's THAT feeling that i can't tolerate at all.
it's rather insulting, don't you think? who the hell do you think you are?

but the most important thing is i'm not sure if the "it" material is there..

a "slight" changes here and there

kok kayaknya banyak yg melenceng dari rencana semula nih, yg tadinya dari 2 minggu bisa2 jadi sebulan. hm... moga2 smuanya lancar2 aja deh biar gak ada kenapa2 disana dan disini juga.

running out of time

at some point now it's still as vague as it was since the first time. everything's still blurred. no sign at all, which means no guarantee at all. maybe that's why the thought of looking for other option's still there. no secure sign in choosing the current option, whereas the other possibility might even be more certain, with plus minus here and there compared with the current. don't wanna make myself think that i'm stuck with this way cos i'm afraid to see other options.