a day of nothing

can't remember when was the last time i stay at home on a weekend. well, not the whole weekend but just today. yes, the whole of today. not even an inch outside the apartment. damn bored..

should've take this spare time to rest but instead i didn't lay a foot on my bed, although it's clear that starting tomorrow it's going to be a busy week. quite chaos, you might say. hope all will be alright.

yk has gone back to his home sweet home n sos in syd. looks like the next reunion might be on the next wedding party.

beyond reasonable doubt

is that the correct term we use in law thing? about someone is still innocent until proven guilty.

anyway, nothing from the above related to this post except for the doubt itself. yeah, i still have this feeling. tried to look inside myself but again it always lead back to the other side. attitudes that i tried to ignore and not making a big fuss about turn out to still affects me somehow. wondering the reasons for doing/not doing things are really as i was told or is there something else, for example not wanting to hurt other party? menjaga perasaan. if that's really it, then it was my feeling that wasn't taken into consideration.

which one do you think is better? not knowing it and be happy in white lies (agak seperti dibodohin) OR knowing things that cause not only relieve but worry too at the same time. which do you prefer?

an intermezzo

one guy with 3-4 girls around him available for him to choose. so he made the decision to choose one. but would that one chosen girl be the one he always think of? would that girl be the one he cares the most? only himself and God know what's inside the guy's head.

reunion, if everything's good

lin n y should be arriving this afternoon but yk is super busy running errands. contacted vie and tom already, just lack of tm and er, whom i can't remember when was my last contact with her.

quite difficult to join the 2 groups together, eh? especially when no one wants to be the eo. well, let's just see how it'll go tomorrow night after the party.

sudoku

gue punya hobi baru yg sebenernya ga guna yaitu main sudoku. lumayan bikin jadi mikir seh tapi yg ada pala jadi puyenk juga lama2 haha.. kemaren si c beli bukunya jadi ya uda deh gue lagi hobi2nya hehe. oiya, akhirnya kemaren gue kesampean juga makan soto mamat di muara karang padahal uda ngidamnya dari bulan lalu kali tuh ampe si c and kendi bosen gue cerewetin mamat mulu katanya haha.. enak sih tapi ga banyak menurut gue jadi yg ada gue makan 2 porsi and 2 nasi juga, that makes me eat as much as kendi!! *pingsan* si kendi aja bengong liat gue rakus gitu katanya hahaha... biarin deh abisnya entah kapan baru gue ketemu itu soto lagi =p

terus... ntar siang ke gading lagi. ada rif and mul yg janjian mau jalan bareng ma kita jadi lumayan seru sih harusnya. yk juga uda disini dan harusnya bisa ketemuan juga kalo pas gue telpon dia ada di rumah. kalo pi, dll kayaknya mending kalo mereka ga nyari gue ga usah nyari soalnya ntar bisa2 rusuh lagi deh.

old fling

that's the first comment that came out from n when i told her that pi is here and i went out with him on tuesday nite. what the? hey, we did talk on the phone and i, regrettably, shared my darkest secrets with him but nothing more than just used-to-be-close-friends-once. he did helped me moving on and cheer me up when i just ended a relationship last time but after that we didn't even contact each other for more than a year. until early this week when he suddenly msg me on fs saying he's back in jkt for good. i think he's looking for me just for companion, nothing more. well, after what happened last time, i don't think he will have any intention other that friendship towards me. he just came back from overseas and so he's looking for friends from everywhere.

a long tiring day

started with waking up from a bad dream that makes me feel bad for a moment, followed with endlessly request about the same thing from many places. definitely for the same target.

had a pair of sore eyes, backache and hungry. but still i'm sitting quietly in front of the screen typing useless things.

in need of a break

v and m: impatience, short-tempered, high-level voice tone, stubborn and judes. this drives dd mad slowly cos as i said dd is ignorant and slow, so v and m need to emphasize on important things for dd to get it.

additional for m: bertele-tele. this drives v and dd mad almost all the time. you don't need to be slow to know that this is annoying.

dd: ignorant, not paying enough attention about things and slow. this drives v and m mad because they have to repeat things again and again to make sure dd got it and so it makes them impatience dan keluarlah high-level tone which makes dd unhappy about that.

can u imagine how people with those characters and attitudes get along with each other? must be a damn great effort, huh? it's darn difficult. bener2 mesti pake usaha dan niat.

note: all these bad characters apply only among themselves. but i'm sure it could effect their attitudes towards other people too sometimes.

another wedding bell

received bet's wedding invitation this morning and it's on the 22nd this month. this is going to be a great reunion if lin, ym and hen are coming. too bad yk wouldn't be able to attend the wedding cos he got his sis' wedding held on the same time. but i hope we can meet up after that cos i don't think the others that come from out of town and overseas would stay long here.

hm... makin banyak aja temen2 gue yg uda merit.

soccer time

italy won 2-0 over germany alias the host!!!

c said that it was on the last 2 min that italy score both goals. wow... see? i've told him that it would be "seru" if the host lost. he said that this time italy played aggressively, more offensive than the usual defensive mode. well, don't really care nor understand soccer but i did love to see italy won. hate it when england and brazil had to pack home..

moms to be

i know that it's impossible but i'm not laughing about it anymore. yes, i started to freak out myself. it never happened before, i mean i never think about it at all, that's why i tot i was silly at first but as time passes it's not that funny anymore.

btw, ann is pregnant already!! wow.. bener2 bibit unggul, eh? another couple that broke the myth that says first time won't get you pregnant. see? her life is really one that very far from complicated but sometimes she denies that.

study - engaged - finish the degree - get merried - pregnant.

then only came the honeymoon. actually, ann and b are in their honeymoon tour now actually. what more can she expect? well, a few years relax before baby time could make it more perfect thou.. ta is also pregnant so yeah, i'm surrounded with preggers. and like an said, when is MY turn?? er.. but that's kinda scary for me now :p

anyway, that's life. people are never satisfied with what they have and they always look for what they don't or can't have in other people who have it.

wiken lagi

bener2 gila wiken dateng pergi cepet banget ga berasa. tadi pagi si ta telpon bilang dia uda di sini and ada di apt. mungkin dia dateng dari semalem tapi yg pasti gue rada males kalo bilang hari ini gue sempet bisa2 diajak ke bandung lagi deh ntar malem. gue emang lagi pengen maen2 ke bandung tapi kalo inget muka adenya mending ga usah deh. sumpe males banget liat muka adenya yg menyebalkan.

padahal pengen gue ajakin liat2 zara yang katanya lagi sale up to 50% tapi bisa2 gue digeret dia ampe malem deh. gimana mau excuse coba kalo tau2nya gue jadi mau nyusul si n and hen. pokoknya gue tetep berpikir kalo the whole member of that family are weirdos biarpun kategori anehnya beda2. yang paling mending ya cuma si ta itu menurut gue. semoga aja bener.

lame weirdo

I HATE THAT SUCKASS WEIRDO!!!

who the hell he think he is?? if it's not for the sake of my friendship with his sis and my mom's with his mother i would really really love to swear rude words and curse him and ban him from my eyesight.

dipikirnya dia kegantengan apa?? actually this is the second entry dedicated to swear at that sick weirdo. MENDING KALO DIA GANTENG!!

all the nice attitude he put up was fake. i never even feel flattered when he says nice things about me or even when he opens the door for me and my sis. it's obvious that he kinda have to put effort in doing all those crap. even my sis could see that there's something weird about the asshole since she met him. bahhh!!!!

ungg...

i got a funny question that makes me laugh. it's so impossible but really terrifying if it's real. but it's cute thou. well, i'm sure that he's actually worried and scared if that really happens. i know i will.

new template

akhirnya!! baru aja templatenya digantii sama si an. entah kenapa mungkin emang gue bener2 gaptek yg bener2 parah sampe ga bisa ganti sendiri padahal uda dia bikinin n tinggal g copy paste doank. haiyah..

yah yg penting untung ada dia deh hihihi..

crap about crap

feel pushed or trapped? huh? i almost gave up just now. don't know what's keeping me from doing it. perhaps my sanity n dvkcl. wish you were here..

moonlighting

the moon is on its full mode since yesterday night. err.. not that i'm in a romantic mood or anything but it can be seen clearly in front of me. i mean up there.

btw, i think it's been solved. or sort of. last night. i'm still a bit confused actually, but trying to make it simpler and just live it.

crap

after the long pointless talk about this, the thing i'm afraid of really happen and apparently it's been going on for quite sometime.

for better or worse

no, it's is not like the wedding vow. it's a darn question i've been asking myself again lately.

there might be a solution. not confirmed yet but yeah, it might eventually be solved by itself by the time if it really happens. still definitely gonna give a pang but maybe for the best? well, i don't know that anymore.

silence is gold?

suara gue ilank!! memang dari beberapa hari lalu gue ada batuk2 dikit dan dari kemaren pagi bangun uda mulai ngerasa ga beres karena suara uda setengah ilank2. pas si wen telpon jam 9an buat nanyain soal ikut ke gading aja juga uda setengah megap2 buat jawabnya.

pas siangan gue uda bisa ngomong lagi biarpun masih serak dan proses perubahan suara gue mulai dari yang serak-serak seksi menurut si helen tapi menurut gue kayak suara bencong TL ampe jadi kayak suara nenek2 yg kena asma megap2 gitu.

pas malem gue uda beneran susah ngomong tapi masih bisa didenger deh biarpun kayak anak bisu yg nyoba ngomong. sumpe jelek bgt n pas mau tidur uda ngerasa kayaknya suara gue ga ada lagi.

and skrg pas bangun? beneran aja suara gue ilank. mana pagi2 bonyok uda seperti biasa suka ngeselin ngomong yg ga perlu ampe gue kesel jg gue ga bisa nyaut!! ampe akhirnya yg bener2 perlu soal kerjaan gue coret2 di kertas buat kasih tau mereka. damn it. mungkin ini saat yg tepat buat gue belajar menahan diri juga.

bah.