random quotes

"a smile can hide the tears, a laugh can hide the pain, but nothing stops the longing to have you back again"

something about the past

someone once told me that i'm being very brave when he heard about a piece of my story. he said that not many people would've had enough guts to take the path i chose that time, to make that moment's decision. but i never agree with him. i thought that was a very crazy of me to do such thing. in fact, i still think that it was a crazy thing i did. a very sloppy, careless decision made withough thinking it thoroughly enough again and again, maybe?

well, one thing about the guy who said that is a very fluet sweet-talker, so you'll agree more with me. and if you try reading it between the lines, i think that what he was trying to tell me is that i'm very stupid. of that, i have no words to defend myself. nor that i want to.

poet turns possessive ex-bf

hey, you! yes, you the one who's always got the perfect words of wisdom there!

what happen to all of your perfect theories about the big L word?
the one that says you shouldn't give what they can't accept and the other one that says you shouldn't ask what they can't give?

oh, that's just it, isn't it? theories.
how ironic.

can you just let go of the poor miss and move on with your life? haven't you see or hear enough? or feel enough? i don't think she's that worthy to turn you into a psychopath either. and unfortunately, you're the one people will feel sorry for. i know i am. poor you.

oh, on a lighter note, i love twilight the movie! ^_^

unconditional love?

this is quoted from a friend

love is giving, not taking --> so if you heard about take & give, it's something like this:
you give, what the other can take
and you take, what the other can give
you don't give, what the other doesn't want to take
and you don't ask for, what the other doesn't have

if it doesn't work, then give it away

hueh.. itu kata2 buntutnya pait bener ya..

snapping, bickering, shouting.

bah.

playboy mansion? make it my dream house!!

ugh.. bagus banget sampe kebawa mimpi. sayangnya it costs a darn big fortune! doain aja yah biar bisa kesampean huhuhu

love is cinta

apa sih sebenernya cinta? apa sih arti dari kata2 yg sepertinya dibesar2kan oleh banyak orang, tapi sebenernya sebagian dari mreka juga gak ngerti dan masih mencari2 artinya?

kalo kata carrie bradshaw, serasa ada kupu2 dalam perut
kalo kata orang2 gombal, cinta bikin semua jadi indah
kalo kata orang2 bodoh, rela mati demi cinta
kalo kata alkitab, well secara ringkas, gak egois, sabar, murah hati dan semua hal positif
de el el, banyak lagi arti menurut penyair2 yg kalo ngedengernya waktu mood lagi gak pas bisa bikin sewot

yah, tapi intinya menurut kebanyakan orang cinta itu sesuatu yg bagus.

jadi kalo bisa melakukan apa saja demi seseorang, tapi kalo ditampar juga rasanya ingin membalas dengan menampar atau malah menendang itu namanya apa?

bisa berkorban dan merelakan segalanya, tapi juga bisa balas menyakiti jika disakiti dan bukannya malah menerima dan memaafkan itu disebut apa?

apa itu bisa masuk kategori cinta juga?

mungkin cinta yg egois, tapi seharusnya gak begitu.

atau itu cuma kenyataan pahit bahwa pada akhirnya manusia memang hanya makhluk hidup yg pada akhirnya secara alami akan mementingkan dan melindungi dirinya sendiri dulu?

atau yg seperti itu adalah hal aneh yg normal yg memang sering terjadi?
after all, love is something weird.

sometimes felt like magic, sometimes felt like BS. and too much love will kill you, somesay.

scary deja vu

belakangan ini ada hal yang bikin gue takut. entah kenapa semakin dilihat rasanya makin terlihat adanya kemiripan seseorang yang gak g suka dalam dirinya. menakutkan.

shame on you if you fool me once, shame on me if you fool me twice

i was wondering if you're trying to make me look like a fool in front of that person or not.

maybe you didn't realize that what you did was bad for me. but too bad for you, i'm not someone that naive nor stupid that i could straight away tell that something was not right. and shame on you, i was right.

you could try, or as a matter of fact, you did tried to act stupid in front of me, but you know it won't work so why did you even bother and try? come one, babe. you know it won't be easy to fool me. i'm super sensitive, remember? that i could tell if something's wrong, even if that came from someone totally unimportant to me.

dan gue masih juga bingung kenapa loe masih juga gak bisa belajar untuk lebih terbuka dan jujur. apapun alasan loe, itu bullshit semua buat gue. i appreciate honesty more than caughting you doing ugly stuff myself.

now i do really think that this whole idea going for the trip is a bad thing. it gets worse in the past few days, not sure why. my short temper, her whiny noisy attitude. they don't get along really well anymore. and they won't. should i just call it off?

daripada gak ada yg enjoy dan malah bikin dosa padahal tujuan kesana adalah sesuatu yg seharusnya sacred. haruskah gue tega2in dan biarkan dia pergi sendirian bodoh2?

bah.

words of wisdom

went to the weekly women gathering mom's usually have every wednesday with her religion thing yesterday.

a piece of advise to think about: don't depend your happiness on someone else's hand. you can't expect other people to make you happy. it's you to make yourself happy, not other people. don't make your reason for living is to make someone happy and expect in return that they would make you happy too. you might get lucky but there's a bigger chance that you might get disappointed too.

easier said than done. well, the advise came from a man so it won't be that easy to be applied. i guess they make him as the guest speaker to see guys' point of view.

dapet mimpi jelek lagi pas di s'pore. sigh. entah itu another sign atau emang cuma alam bawah sadar gue yg masih gak bisa lupain. bener2 tamu gak diundang yg seenaknya dateng dengan skenario yg jelek.

the five people you meet in heaven

sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. you're just passing it on to someone else.

ada kalanya ingin berteriak memaki dengan kata2 yang sangat tajam dan menusuk untuk membalas agar orang tersebut bisa merasakan juga sakitnya. tapi gimanapun kata2 dan perbuatan pasti beda hasilnya.

sampai sekarang topik itu masih sukses membangkitkan rasa marah dan benci yg amat sangat sampai rasanya ingin menyumpah serapah. sayangnya belum tentu ada guna. yg ada bikin karma sendiri karena ngeluarin kata2 buruk.

a little joke

love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does NOT BOAST, it is NOT PROUD. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
1 Corinthians 13:4 (i think)

and by joke i mean sindiran halus. hehehe.

i wish there's a mask that could always cover all my flaws. i wish i could be that mask.

sayangnya self control saya sangat payah sehingga topeng pun hanya bisa tahan dipakai sebentar sebelum akhirnya dibuang dan wajah asli pun terlihat.

yah sedikit banyak capek juga rasanya kalo harus bertopeng terus walaupun sebenarnya kadang diperlukan. ada juga yang akhirnya karena terlalu sering memakai topeng untuk menutupi wajah asli akhirnya topeng itu pun menjadi satu dengan dirinya. dan akhirnya jadi bingung sendiri dengan wajah yang sebenarnya seperti apa.

gak jelas yg satu ini tergolong jenis apaan. antik. kalo dibilang ayam pasti tersinggung padahal rasanya ada ciri2nya sedikit banyak.

yah, there goes my mood for bangkok. fun spoiler.

kenapa sih ga bisa mikir lurus aja? ga perlu sampe jauh2 ke ujung kulon tapi melenceng ga jelas. yg harusnya dipikirkan dan terpikirkan malah ga dianggap sama sekali. heran.

obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD).

interesting.

rumput tetangga pasti keliatan lebih ijo

aneh rasanya bisa iri melihat kedekatan dan keakraban sepasang orang yang bahkan bukan pasangan. melihat bagaimana mereka sangat rukun bercanda dan bahkan bisa manja2an. ga ada berantem2 atau apapun yg rumit. bahkan kadang terlihat lebih "coupley" daripada yg couple beneran.

hmm..

is it a crime or a bad thing if i want him to want the same thing i want? or is it as a new friend said that men don't care about small stuffs? so they are just simply ignorant about those things. if yes, then poor those women who expect their men to be more caring and sensitive. as for my case, seems the more i want it the harder i get it. that young fortune teller did once told me about this. instead of chasing it hardly i should just let things loose a bit and it shall come to me. easier said than done. moreover, time plays a role too here.