running out of time

at some point now it's still as vague as it was since the first time. everything's still blurred. no sign at all, which means no guarantee at all. maybe that's why the thought of looking for other option's still there. no secure sign in choosing the current option, whereas the other possibility might even be more certain, with plus minus here and there compared with the current. don't wanna make myself think that i'm stuck with this way cos i'm afraid to see other options.