falling in love n the craps

love. what is love?

some said it starts with a kiss and ends with tears. some said it never ends.

what's it like to fall in love? how does it feel? is it really something that can change a person to a better someone like they said in all the romance novels and romantic drama?

yesterday ellen called n she said she's experiencing it now, all the things that we all thought it only exist in movies, novels and all the fairytales. well, this is actually her second time. i'm not sure about mine.

i wanna have it too. in a real sense, not just the excitement in the beginning of something that fades with time n boredom. is there anyone out there who can make me feel that way? and for me to return the head over heels feeling to that other half.

but that's not all. here comes the real thing. the next after falling in love is trying to make things work, not only between the 2 but everything. i mean everything. starts from accepting each other the way they are we have to adapt with each other's situation too. it's quite torturing to fall in love itself, in a good way as people say thou, so let alone the pain for letting go the impossible. a brilliant mix between sweet and bitterness.

but to be honest, i don't really believe there's such thing as true love anymore. love is not something that always wonderful, at least not completely just the good thing. it's not always a thing that suddenly come to you out of nowhere when you do nothing. it is sometime come when you least expect it but you do still need to reach it, to earn it. but again, maybe it's just me being cynical hehe..

hm.. i wanna watch old movies but don't know where to get it. i'm interested in casablanca, my fair lady n the one in the sleepless in seattle movie n other audrey hepburn's n the other classic beauties movies.