expectation

few days ago i got a question about whether i have any expectation about something. frankly, no. i dare not expect anything anymore, whether about life, friendship, etc. well, at least i don't expect for the impossible. i try to keep my expectation low so when things just turn out unlike what i want it to be i won't feel disappointed or hurt like what happened last time. but hey, i'm just a girl, a human being. although i don't expect anything but still there is some expectation. blank one thou, cos there's nothing to expect. confusing, eh? well, i did say i am complicated. who doesn't?

i do expect to get some respect. not the kind of respect you give to someone you honor or anything, i'm not someone crazy about being respected/honored. just a simple respect by treating me in a good n decent way, not changing between your moods. and for this one, i know it's not supposed to be like this but i want the other person to be open n honest as in if there's a new player, whether for real or just another thing, i wanna know so that i could have a chance to walk out first. is that too much to ask? i know i have no right whatsoever, and i know it makes me sounds weird, but i don't want to be in the middle of something nor something to compare of. maybe it's just that i don't like how it might turn up if it's not good for me. yeah, complicated. as i said, i'm just a human being with feelings n afraid to be hurt no matter what, so there's nothing wrong to be cautious rite?