sometimes there are things that just can't be compromised due to the very opposite point of view, so the only way out is for one of them to take a break and let the other get it. i'm sure the favour would be returned.

seperti jalan di jalanan sempit yg cuma ada 1 jalur tapi memang ditujukan untuk bisa 2 arah. kalo ada 2 mobil datang dari 2 arah sama2 maju terus dan akhirnya ketemu di tengah hadap2an apa akhirnya ada yg bisa lewat? pasti salah satu harus ngalah dan mundur supaya akhirnya dua2nya bisa lewat dan sampe di tujuan masing2, kan? and that's what they called taking turns. bukannya malah ngotot ribut di tempat karena uda pasti sia2. yg kayak gini ini yg justru butuh action, bukan adu kerasnya.

so is this a f*cking cue or what? am i just too blind to get the hint and step into denial??

f*cking gut instinct but so f*cking true.

funnily, the main thing felt when i found out wasn't anger. not sure if disappointment was the right one either but surely it's there too. it's more like shocked because it's proven and so f*cking accurate.

just tell me, is there anything more that i just need to find out to verify that all this time my instinct was right and it's not just me imagining it and making it a fuss?? it's crap to alter my mind just to find out the first instrict turns out to be the correct one. trying to make a positive thinking just to find out that the negative one was right in the first place.

we both have our share of mistakes, admit that. i'm not here alone, so the efforts should come from both sides, don't you think? and i'm trying. just not that hard cos i'm still waiting for you to do your share too.

action speaks louder than anything and you've shown me that.

teach me how to be numb so i can get rid or even prevent that too attached thing that eln said to me. she's the smart one usually, but girls are just girls with emotions and feelings that are uncotrollable and technically override everything else.

so much for a feeling. it just makes us more vulnerable and fragile. like some said sarcastically: eat that, sucker! can't believe i had to admit that some of my friends were right.

and now thanks to him i can't get rid of that thing out of my mind. it instantly ruins everything. somehow i felt there's proud in doing it as a revenge. hope he's satisfied. i tried to see it from his side but still i can't accept that excuse cos that bad intention was really there.